learned to get over you too easy
i know how to shut my head like being
underwater in the pool i do laps in
i don’t cry if i don’t want to
3am and so much time
smirnoff and root beer i feel so
seventeen
which end do you light the cigarette
i will go anywhere except home
these days
drive until the street is unfamiliar
sleep in the car
told you we won’t talk anymore
and i meant it too
(except when i called you trashed head caving)
i’ll always pick up the phone you said and fuck you for that
like you’re being nice
like you will creep back up my throat like
that,
sickly
it is when my house feels big and
i don’t miss you but i miss
a warm body
dancing in another kitchen
only want someone to take care of me
i got nothing in me to give
ragged i go swimming
the water a vacuum in space