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Sometimes

So we were like 4 years in 
When the bad times did begin
We're arguing about things
That never seem to end 
About money, about uni
About things between you and me
That you never seem to let go
No matter how much time does go passed 
It's the past, let's keep it in the past 
If we dwell on these issues 
Then we surely cannot last 
But it wasn't always this way 
So let me relay
A story of yesterday
Before her heart did stray 
You see, there was nothing in this world
That as a tag team we couldn't do
Just put our minds & our hearts together 
Let's kill it, me and you 
Like the days we spent all day
Getting baked watching Twin Peaks 
I quoted every single word 
you didn't mind and that's neat
Like the time we rocked up
To my uncles wedding 
I flicked the joint out of the car window
And it landed into some spider webbing 
We did circles around the car park
Trying for a space to park in
Flicked the joint off the webbing 
Nobody saw, and that's winning 
You see we smoked a lot of weed
Which caused many a problem
Smoking past every single issue
Instead of working on and solving em
Because it's an easier option 
Problems soon forgotten 
Hidden anger, secret resentment 
Pushed down to the bottom 
And every time we do this it feels like all the work we've put into this thing is wasted
Feels like just like in Lost things would have been better if we'd only communicated 
Instead, we take the stones we've been paving our way with and threw them at each other in haste 
And by the time it came to relay said stones we'd forgotten their purpose or place 
It Suffices to say
These stones we do lay
Could be Rome someday
As long as we don't stray
So let's pave the way
For a brighter day
But things don't always work out 
So now I must say
Sometimes I wanna go back
Through time and space 
And find the past version of me 
And slap that douche in the face 
And advise him how much better
Life truly can be
Learn to think once again 
And just set yourself free 
From the chains
That breed mundane 
Every day is the same 
I'm just telling you these words 
To try and save us both the pain 
But she's grown in a way
That leaves you in yesterday
Life gets better 
You'll be ok 
It was her time to grow
And I guess we were too slow 
To put a fix to the problems
That started to overthrow 
All the dreams that we were building 
Well I guess there was a ceiling 
I thought the ceiling was much higher
Yeah that ceiling was misleading
You see for a little while there 
It seemed like we were getting better 
She was starting to become independent 
And was really getting her life together 
Her panic attacks were becoming fewer 
But stated to feel I never knew her
This new version of my girlfriend 
That she was claiming was the new her
So now I'm defeated and beaten
My body feels drained 
I can tell by the look on her face
She's beyond feeling the same 
And I can't say I didn't see it coming 
I'd have shouted spoilers 
If I had the energy 
The girl grows up and leaves the loser 
This time the loser is me 
But you've gotta give me a green mushroom 
You have no idea how hard I tried 
It's not my fault that once I got to bowser 
I fell in the lava and died 
But that was my last continue 
And no more extra lives 
Instead I lay back on my bed
And close my water filled eyes
And think back on our times together 
And work out where it all went wrong 
And what I'd done to tear apart 
A love I considered to be strong 
Because at the end of the day we all think we're our stories main protagonist 
like everything has been leading 
and building towards this
perfect moment in time
where you'll once again be mine 
and our hearts can realign 
And everything will be  wicked 
But 
If I'm not the joker
And you sure ain't Harley Quinn
And this love did soon end
As sure as this love did begin 
And I hope we remain friends 
But wait for this broken heart to mend
I've seen you with your new boyfriend 
And so good blessings I do send
And 
I don't regret the time 
That we spent together 
I just wish I took the time 
To learn to be better 
And to be someone 
You couldn't push aside 
And to be the one you run to
When you need somewhere to hide 
But I failed you. But more importantly I failed myself. I spent so long trying to hold on to familiarity that I couldn't see it dying before my very eyes. 
But that's how love is I guess
What you think is a test 
Can often be the stress 
Of a dying mess 
A love that just needs to be laid to rest 
And my only regret is the happiness 
That I've absolutely missed
Holding on
to nothing 
If only we ended this thing before we did. If only we ended this thing when we both knew we should have. 
But it's cool
At least I now have Rick and Morty

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