God It Hurts

• Posted by: Sasha-Brianne McClain
• Created: May 12, 2017
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It hurts...

The first time he told me he still wanted someone else.

It hurt... God it really hurt...

His past getting in between our future

It hurts...

You wanna know why it hurts?

And this may sound cliche but

It's because I love him, that's why it hurts.

I love him so damn much

And even that isn't enough...

All I want it for him to put me first

Love me, cherish me, adore me, want me, need me...

Maybe it's me..

Maybe I just dont love enough...

Could that be it?

I love with every part of my heart and soul so to answer my own question

I say no

Well then what can it be?

What is wrong with me...?

God it hurts...

I can feel my heart quickly slowing down as if it's just awaiting a heartbreak,

I can feel my chest getting tight as I struggle for a gasp of air...

Why does this have to hurt so much...

It hurts more because I know you don't care

As I lay in my bed and tears begin to slowly pass over my cheeks I wonder...

Is this what love feels like?

From what I remember love is suppose to feel good and give you butterflies

Love is suppose to be the best feeling on earth but that's not what I've known love to be...

So tell me, what is love?

Is love one-sided? Is love full of heartaches and heart breaks? Does true love really exsist?

I don't know anymore...

Damn this hurts...

Having to always share the one you love with another female

Having to put how you feel aside just so peope won't wonder...

I just want to cry.. Why.. Why does this have to hurt so much...

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