As the mind wanders and night rises I find myself uneasy A string of perpetual sorrow Reveling in past glory and misery As if my present life Belongs to the ceiling and the walls Of the room I once explored Love and life as a teenager What simple treasures long past And yet I hold tight When the silky cloud of my past Seeps and dwells beneath my skin Red bumps and stress rise Lacking release and a strong mind For which I feel chained and unbroken Treading the rain that resembles all I have left and forgotten.